close but still far away.

Hi and welcome 2017

as the annual report of 2016 is commencing, I writing this on my couch, facing the TV, this blog on a yearly basis.


Regarding to the title, every little and big details are connected to it now. My studies, relationships and career are currently going fairly decent than two or three years ago. Its balance is terrifying however calm. Listening to the Youtuber, Fitz and his mates in CSGO, shows me how mature I am in taking entertainment content.

Nevertheless, I kinda grew. The feeling of maturity inside me rises in a moderate manner. However everything in 2016 is kinda decent. Mature wise I'm still an egoistical fuck who fucking want to express but can't because the Fadzly within me does not have the intention to show who he is is. Well this fucker, really likes to talk shit behind anyone's back, not about others, rather about how shitty and obscure I am in the public eye. Not just the public's however the keen eyes of my thoughts and emotions truly shitfuck me a lot. Thinking you're a shit dear self, you're nothing Fadzly, You Don't Belong You Disgraceful Human. As the title goes, myself from my one's self is biologically close but is still distant psychologically.

BOOM

2016 happened

Anxieties flew
Depression flew
She was gone.

A few missteps
A few mishaps
A few corrections

3 months later

Rome happened?
Caesar happened?
a stab behind a back
blood was abstract

she flew back
myself taken aback
birds migrates
humans do too
thank you you


I thought she found herself. She did however I'm still dizzy. Does she found herself? or found another woman embraced by her physical embodiment.

Resolution 2017?

I hope I'll stay calm and don't do stupid acts anymore in the name of love? not only love Fadzly but don't take yourself for granted for people you might seem as important in your small retinas.


Have a merry 2k17 lads

STILL WAITING FOR THAT 3DS THOUGH

Really creepy story ( Don't read)

Happy 2014 (its kinda late though)

Assalamualaikum all..

23rd of April 2014. Not a special date or something but just want to update this blog annually. Blogging kinda hurts me a lot cuz its reminded me if ex so bad till i really wannna cry like a little freaking baby ( im a 18 year old for my sake ) thats y i kinda hate blogs. *sprays bug spray. In contrary, ppl loves to blog bla bla bla bla bla bla. about life and some sort. its pretty weird and disgusting stuff to read bout like hey im wif my favourite animal *selfie plus duckface. its kinda creepy to see them do stuff like that. I was hoping that animal would eat his/her head off. lol . sory for violence. back to topic, blogging is not much of a deal though for some kind of ppl like dem hipsters use typewriter to send a frickin letter to dem buddies. *brits accent. for some ppl they use other social medias like derpbook, little blue chick and a picture type of derpbook. its becoming viral to this day who have more followers than other just wanted to have internet fandom. if u r one have a cookie ;). thats a creepy emoticon. basically, im writing this at 5 am and one of the bad things of the medias. since it like a nicotine, ppl are like addicted to it. checking their phones/laptop/pcs every damn second. well enough wif the nagging.

OOOOOOKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

Time for the 2013 review! *fireworks

1. it suck hard like the other years because well im single and desperate at that time. do some stupid things. do a lot more stupid things which makes me regret and do all the bad things again and felt guilt again. STAHP DUDE.

2.it sucked harder cuz my grades in my major spm. cuz of one subject i cant seem to forgive myself. im like i should got and A in this subject but hell no i cant. DAM!!

3.it sucked the most cuz again i did a lot of stupid things and repeating all over again. REALLY DUDE STAHP.

Thats all for the review *curtain closes

I really hope that this year would be a little bit better than last year. less suck maybe. well time to venture up dem obstacle in life. QUITE IMPOSSIBLE THOUGH. >< For a good news, my dota seems a lot stable from both years. :D *creepy emoticon again. Toodles :*

Selamat Berpuasa @ Happy Fasting

Bila hati saling terpaut rasa cinta terjalin indah
Bila salah & Khilaf telah terjadi maka Mohon Maaf
Lahir & Batin atas kesalahan,
“Marhaban Ya Ramadhan”
Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa
Semoga kita selalu diberkahi dibulan yang penuh mahrifah

Remember, fast a whole month get a lot of money...
LOL

Then, Just sincere to fast....

Well, Selamat Berpuasa
A VERY LONG POST AGO.

Miracles. Miracles Everywhere.

Assalamualaikum and what's up people! xD So about the title. Miracles had happen everywhere,everyone and everyday. I happened to get a miracle like scoring good grades in exam and getting a girl's number. For instance, le friend like suddenly gave me a girl's number then we text like everyday n everynight. (hoping u read this XD) She even reached RM0.00 in her credit balance. HAHAHAHA. Mybe last nite long talks XD. She can't sleep so i had to do something. HAHAHA. Okay, back to business . Miracles happens to everyone like to your rivals, enemies and friends. Even your parents had miracles. You, their son or daughter, is a miracle for them. See? It happens to everyone. Yes, I know miracle is not a science but hey.It's god's gift to us. So, use it wisely. hahaha. Nothing to talk about really. Just bored of nothingness here. xD So, see ya later alligator. XD

Maybe a little push is all I need.

Assalamualaikum alls. >< Crazy life had I been through. This year is the most hectic year ever in le life. Sometime a bore, sometime awesome and sometime despair. A relationship sunk? That's normal. Even though it hurts but I got to move on. ^_^ . Despair and sadness are normal maybe. So, no need to be overly sad on someone but i know i shouldn't say this. Well, i did get that. Cried a lot even though a guy. Fortunately, I realised that i have friends to count on. After 4 months of downfall, I finally got back on my feet. Pretty bad eh?? but that's normal. It's le first anyway. I had given up on that feeling. AND I'M OUT DUDES! THANKS FOR READING. APPRECIATE THAT!!!! XD

The most....

Assalamualaikum!
Annyeong!
Ni hao
konichiwa



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Today i am really bored.....
Nothing special happens...
Except being the pitcher for the school's sofball team....
Band practise as always...
Add Math notebook gone!
Really bored today....
Bye...

Enjoy!

Assalamualaikum to all Muslims..
AND
Hello to all people all over the world...

I just want to show pictures that I edit in my phone...
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Just Comment...
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