close but still far away.

Hi and welcome 2017

as the annual report of 2016 is commencing, I writing this on my couch, facing the TV, this blog on a yearly basis.


Regarding to the title, every little and big details are connected to it now. My studies, relationships and career are currently going fairly decent than two or three years ago. Its balance is terrifying however calm. Listening to the Youtuber, Fitz and his mates in CSGO, shows me how mature I am in taking entertainment content.

Nevertheless, I kinda grew. The feeling of maturity inside me rises in a moderate manner. However everything in 2016 is kinda decent. Mature wise I'm still an egoistical fuck who fucking want to express but can't because the Fadzly within me does not have the intention to show who he is is. Well this fucker, really likes to talk shit behind anyone's back, not about others, rather about how shitty and obscure I am in the public eye. Not just the public's however the keen eyes of my thoughts and emotions truly shitfuck me a lot. Thinking you're a shit dear self, you're nothing Fadzly, You Don't Belong You Disgraceful Human. As the title goes, myself from my one's self is biologically close but is still distant psychologically.

BOOM

2016 happened

Anxieties flew
Depression flew
She was gone.

A few missteps
A few mishaps
A few corrections

3 months later

Rome happened?
Caesar happened?
a stab behind a back
blood was abstract

she flew back
myself taken aback
birds migrates
humans do too
thank you you


I thought she found herself. She did however I'm still dizzy. Does she found herself? or found another woman embraced by her physical embodiment.

Resolution 2017?

I hope I'll stay calm and don't do stupid acts anymore in the name of love? not only love Fadzly but don't take yourself for granted for people you might seem as important in your small retinas.


Have a merry 2k17 lads

STILL WAITING FOR THAT 3DS THOUGH